audreeeyy

2008-05-03T18:29:00.003+08:00

MOVED ,

http://labelsyn.livejournal.com

change of scenery.

2008-04-02T19:33:00.002+08:00

right now,

i'm at this point in my life where my self-esteem

has hit rock bottom .

and no,

i dont need you to boost my confidence.

thanks.

i look in the mirror and i wonder

where the girl i used to be went to.

i'm getting so tired of telling myself to get up in the morning,

tired of motivating myself,

tired of trying to be the best i can be.

and the worst of all this is,

crying for no apparent reason at all at the strangest times.

i feel so empty inside.
i wish i could smile/laugh and actually mean it ,

like i used to.

2008-03-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

Benjamin

Happy Birthday sweets

(29th March)

sorry i was too broke to get you something nice,

cause as you know i spent all my $ on myself earlier.

yes shoot me.

anyway,

i love you and i hope you had fun.

2008-03-14T23:08:00.003+08:00

Holiday

hello you,

this one-week holiday hasn't been fantastikkk.

went for a three day trip to Kuantan (Malaysia) .

it was fun, kinda.

oh welllzxz,

went to watch Horton at Vivo with

Reyan, Amelia, Brandon & Adriel last night

after meeting Ben (:

met Shaun today ,

kinda forgot how sweet/silly/funny/annoying/stupid he is.

walked around,

and watched Step Up 2 The Streets.

super disappointing compared to the first Step Up

(cause my boyflen Channing Tatum was only in it for 5 minutes)

hahahahahahaha

look at the picture below of Shaun the superhero sheep.

2008-03-03T21:26:00.002+08:00

The Great Wide Open

Hanging out behind the club on the weekend,

acting stupid, getting drunk with my best friends.

i couldn't wait for the summer and the Warped Tour .

last friday was the most fun i've had in ages

clubbed with the usuals

(haven't done that in ages, for your info)

didn't get piss-drunk,

danced till my feet hurt.

saturday night,

watched P.s I Love you with Reyan and Tessa .

i cried like a baby (!!!!)

hahaha,

oi.

stop laughing at me.

2008-02-28T21:23:00.002+08:00

Get Buck In Here

Lovelovelove Baby Shane (:

anywayz,

yesterday was good/bad .

skipped two periods of chinese with jiemeizx,

got caught in the end but Mrs Kunna loves us,

so we didn't get into any trouble

(HAHAH IN YOUR FACE KANG LAU SHI!!!)
lunched at city hall with Clare-y, Jaz-y and Jenn-y.

finally had my goddamn hokkien mee.

waited for my boyflen for about an hour,

kinda pms-ed and got cranky with him

though it really wasn't his fault .

went home and slept supah early for the first time in ages,

woke up this morning and felt quite good.

met ben again and then we hung out at my place,

when i was walking him out of the gate so he could

take a cab (it was like 8pm?) ,

he started talking about the terrorist dude who escaped.

so i forced him to walk me back to the gate

cause i was scared that after he left i'd

have to walk all the way back home alone and the dude

might just pounce out from somewhere and kill me .

(yez i know he limps so he can't exactly pounce, but still)

i can't wait for the weekend.

okay wait no,

i can't wait for the holidays.

2008-02-26T20:30:00.002+08:00

cause it's been a year.

here's to you and i .

forgive me if i seem forward,

but i've never been in front of anything like you .

it's the last place i ever thought i'd be when i woke up this morning.

is it true that you're always this breathtaking?

you're smart and you're willing,

and my god, this is killing me .

tell me all the things you've never said,

we can lie here and talk for hours in my bed.

i don't have anything to hide,

cause everything i have is not for certain.

tell me all of your hopes,

all of your dreams,

there's just one more thing,

one request,

i want you to take me with you .

take me with you cause i will never let you down,

i will love you now and forever .

you've started to see right through me,

and i'm loving every minute of it,

it's like i'm born again every time i breath in .

if you're curious, my favorite color's pink,

and i like to sing in the shower,

if you like, i'll sing to you.

2008-02-25T10:18:00.012+08:00

Mommy

was mom's 49th birthday on sunday.

it kinda scared me a little,

49 sounds scary doesn't it?

thank god my mommy still looks quite young

Hey mommy,
i wanna scream so loud for you cause i'm so proud of you.
hey mommy,
i appreciate what you gave up for me,
i just want you to be proud of me .
i wanna tell the whole world about a friend of mine,
this little light of mine and i'm gonna let it shine .
i'm gonna take ya'll back to the better times,
i'm gonna talk about my momma if ya'll don't mind .
i was only nine years old,
caught you with tears in your eyes
cause dad was cheating and telling you lies,
then i started to cry as we knelt on the kitchen floor .
i said mommy i'm gonna love you till you don't hurt no more,
and when i'm older, you aint gotta work no more.
i feel like there's so many things i gotta do,
just to prove how much i love you.

#1 Mumsy Wumsy & Little Audrey

#2 Hong Kong

#3 Baby Me

#4 Back When Father Was Still Daddy

#5 My Ah Ma !!!

#6 Yes Pillow, I Love You Too

#7 Godma, James & I

#8 Boyz

#9 HAHA TERRY AND RAPHAEL

#10 Ah Ma (!!) & Benny

#11 Wahlau Eh You Bully Audrey!!

#12 Natalli Poopsy

#13 Hazel :D

#14 (??)

#15 I Was Once Taller Than Hazel

#16 Hurry Please, I Think I Need To Lausai

--
these are all old pictures of myself + family/friends which i dug out .
please,
indulge .

oh class party pictures (from 364854 years ago)
@ www.xanga.com/halfwaycrazy

2008-02-23T21:39:00.002+08:00

Let The Flames Begin

hello all you cyber-losers who still bother

to read my blog although i'm such a boring goof-ball.

so yez me is back from camp.

nothing much to say,

except that my tolerance level was like fucking sky high.

had a few good moments with my friends/class.

and you know everyone was like ,

"c'mon give your best! this is a once-in-a-lifetime-experience."

hell yeah its gonna be once-in-my-frickin-lifetime.

i'm never going for another camp,

ever again.

i'm just glad to be home .

this is how we'll dance when when they try to take us down .

this is what we'll be, oh glory.

2008-02-19T19:45:00.004+08:00

Maybe We'll Talk, & Not Just Speak

St. Valentine's

today's been such a tiring day.

i'm leaving for adventure camp on thursday,

and i'll be back on saturday .

the thought of sleeping outdoors in a nasty tiny

tent isn't exactly hyping me up.

then again,

i'll be with my awesome class.

oh by the way,

Happy Birthday Zozozozozoey.

(hope your dad's okay)

friendship is like peeing on yourself:

everyone can see it,

but only you get the warm feeling that it brings .

xoxo,

peace out all.

2008-02-16T09:55:00.002+08:00

Mine

Listening to the Juno soundtrack

just makes me realise how much i actually love you.

yes although i find it so hard to say it out loud

to anyone else that i'm in love with you .

for all the things you've done for me,

for all the times i let you down,

for the good, bad, and utterly ugly times,

i know you're gonna stick with me.

"I kiss you all starry eyed,

my body's swinging from side to side .

I don't see what anyone can see,

in anyone else but you.

I'm in love with how you feel."

2008-02-12T19:51:00.000+08:00

Amanda Choong Qing Yan

so yeah,

she's gone to Australia and left Jen and i alone together.

Amanda was like,

my first friend in IJ or something.

i really dont know what to say?

i really love her so so so so much.

she was always there to laugh and cry with you

(maybe not cry, but you know)

she's a good listener,

which is a good thing cause i talk alot.

the past 2 years in IJ have been completely amazing,

and i'm thankful you were there with me by my side

from the day i stepped into school to the day you left.

I Love And Miss You !

can't wait till you get back.

(HEARTZ YOU FOREVER AND EVER)

CNY was alright i guess,

ate alot (yez, i mean alot)

shall post up pictures another day.

oh yipee yay,

Valentine's Day is coming!

but i haven't bought the stuff i need to make gifts.

KELLY YOU ARE NOT GETTING A PRESENT!!!

2008-02-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

Spoiled

kay since everyone is like bugging me to update,

i shall!

(stares at everyone)

so..

friday:

super super long day in school,

headed down to town for lunch with Marie

(Jiemeizx came along)

we had loads of fun

then went to Marina Square to celebrate

one of Jen's cell group member's (John) birthday celebration .

dinner at Hong Kong Cafe with the whole cell group.

everyone was veryveryvery nice to me again

after dinner they sang him a specially written song.

Happy Birthday John!

Yuan May, Jenn and i then cabbed down to

Amanda's place for our class party.

it was pretty terrible 'cause it was raining and

they couldnt get the fire started.

so everyone was pretty cranky and most left .

by 9,

Kelly, Jenn, Yuan, Siti, Amanda, Isfah (Kel's friend) and i

got the barbecue going but...

everyone was gone already

we still had fun though!

Isfah was speaking chinese

(i swear, her chinese is powerful siol)

"Lao Po! Ni Wei Sher Mer Zhe Yang?!"

"Wo The Xiong Bu Xiang Xi Gua, Hen Da"

cam-whored with Kelly and Jen after

Isfah, Siti and Yuan May left .

took hilarious photos.

(i dont have them yet)

security guards came and asked us to

stop the fire and clean up the mess.

it struck me that night,

i'm really gonna miss Amanda when she leaves .

saturday:

shopped for new clothes

and threw a tantrum cause i couldn't have this -

Chanel 2.55 Gold Chain Classic Quilted Flap Bag Purse

i know its pretty old,

but still.

oh and check out these two pretty babies -

Chanel Pink Evening Flap Bag

Chanel Pink Lambskin Classic Flap Backpack

(Screams: I WANT! I WANT!)

2008-01-29T08:45:00.000+08:00

Tribute To Jennifer The Sheep Hoe

Mohammad Ali the ahlian-looking beeetch

my hate for you is like hotter than the sun and and and...

bigger/uglier than Ambra .

I DRINK YOUR APPLE TEA ALSO CANNOT!!!

HATE CHU HATE CHU HATE CHU!

2008-01-28T19:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMANDA!

the following post is taken from Jen's blog,

www.xanga.com/halfwaycrazy

because we spent the whole weekend together

but i'm just a lazy fatass so i dont wanna blog

(i'll be commenting in red)

celebrated amanda's birthday

(supposedly countdown but we forgot to countdown)

over at audrey's on friday.

yuanmay amanda and i stayed over.

ashley and eunice came.

had pizza and all for dinner and we went to the (dark)playground.

had absoluuuuut vodka, baby.

thx to abigail's little wind (her boyfr's name is Xiao Feng)

and audrey's kaching kaching.

(yez so after school that day Xiao Feng bought Absolut Raspberri

for us and i paid 57 fucking bucks for it.

oh, we played drinking games that night.

Amanda + Eunice got high.)

next morning (saturday) amanda and i woke up

late so we ate breakfast together

hahaha adorably funny small pancakes.

yuanmay, jiemeizxz and i left for cgm while amanda went for cat class.

(all their cell group members were supah friendly and nice)

after cell group meeting jiemeizxz and i left

and (clears throat) embarked on our adventurous journey around sunny singapore to take pictures (the pictures are amaaaaazing, btw)

for arts alive! with her cousin's kick-ass ultralord cool sony SLR.

(Jan lent his sexed up camera to us)

then met ben (in town), it was their 11th month that day.

and me the lightbulb shone ever so brightly.

(i didnt know ok!!!)

(nah, Jen didn't feel left out at all)

ben's eye had this extra glow when hes talking to guys

especially the one at newurban male .

he (NUM dude) talk talk talk and just started dancing.

and ben was on the verge of having an orgasm when he saw an afro.

-shakes head.

(what to do? he's my boyfriend)

went to meet alex for dinner (at 10pm -.-) and jiemeizxz couldnt make it ~~cos her mom wanted home like, by 10.~~

(cause my mom was pms-ing biggie, and summoned me home)

i took a cab home to jiemeizxz's crib (after her dinner)

we have like, the funniest and lamest conversations.

but she jacks me alllll the time. (yes!! punches air in victory.)

rolls eyes at chuuu jiemeizxz.

drey: stop touching meeee!! im muslim.

me: do you think muslim can share bed?

drey: of cos la!

me: i mean like, they got a lot of rules about the opposite sex right.

drey: YOURE NOT AN OPPOSITE SEX JENNIFER.

me: ask only right!!!

drey: you think you really become guy now is it!!!

(HAHAHHAHHA)

i had like, rly good dreams last night

but SOMEBODY(stares at jiemeizxz) had to keep waking me up.

me: omg i dreamt i lived in a castle. with roses..

AND YOU HAD THORNS BECAUSE YOU KEEP WAKING ME UP!!!

drey: MY CASTLE WAS NEXT DOOR

AND WAS BIGGER THAN YOURS!

me: YOU HAD THORNS!!!

drey: I DONT CARE!

me: YOUR CASTLE HAD THORNS!!

drey: I DONT FRIGGING CARE!!!

me: THORNS!!!!!

drey: I HATE ROSES!!!!

me: THORNS!!!!!

both: ROLLS EYES AT CHEW.

#1 Hatechu Jiemeizxz

#2 Look At Amanda

#3 Smelly Boy

#5 Mohammad

#7 (??)

#8 The Handsome People

#9 Yours Truly

2008-01-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

Brompton Cocktail

today was like whoa!

one hour of non-stop drama in class,

woo-fucking-hoo .

i just hope Zoey's alright.

getting ready for another day,

jam-packed with another dose of drama of course.

(after effects, you see?)

oh and of course,

math test is tmr too.

fuck indices.

i just hope tmr night goes well,

i cant wait,

(screams Vodkaaaa!)

2008-01-23T09:07:00.000+08:00

Love & Lose

well i don't wanna be the blame, not anymore .

it's your turn to take a seat,

cause we're settling the final score .

that's what you get when you let your heart win,

and i've drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.

why do we like to hurt so much?

i wonder how i'm supposed to feel when you're not here,

cause i've burned every bridge i ever built when you were here .

i keep holding on to silly things, i never learn .

oh all the possibilities,

i'm sure you've heard.

if i ever start to think straight,

this heart will start a riot in me .

i said i'm okay, but i know how to lie.

you were all that i had, you were delicate and hard to find .

2008-01-16T18:59:00.000+08:00

I HATE JENNIFER TAN KE THENG

haha okay not really.
Mrs Kunna is being totalleh unreasonable
by not letting me sit with Jen/Jeimeizxz/Mohammad Ali/Ke Theng
during math class cause of one stupid little thing D:
like helloooooo,
i'm the only one who teaches her algebra,
if not how would she have gotten 9/10?!
Ke Theng has gotten into this weird habit of calling
me Krystal after i told her my mom nearly named me that.
actually its was Crystal,
but Ke Theng said "Krystal with a K suits you more."
kay whatever.
so i've decided to call her by her chinese name,
which she hatez.
(big grin)
lunched with Peshu, Ke Theng & Clare today (:
--
woo-fucking-hoo
did i mention two people who pissed me off majorly?
first off,
the biggest poseur in CHIJ.
make a wild wild wild guess (it'd probably be correct)
first she copies my concept of one of my pictures
(which by the way, was from 182638 months ago)
and then she suddenly proclaims in her class during POA that she shall now be called "Mohammad Whatshername"
(sound familiar to anyone?)
please,
get some originality .
secondly,
some girl in my class came up to me yesterday early in the morning -
girl: hey audrey, were you and jen the
ones who planned the class party?
me: uh yeh we came up with the idea, why?
girl: well, even though you're in the class comm,
i think you should consult the head of the class.
(i thought she meant Mrs K, so i didn't say anything)
girl: yeh i think you should've consulted the
class-chairperson first before making such decisions.
me: (rollz eyez)
girl: DONT ROLL YOUR EYES AT ME!
THAT IS VERY RUDE!
me: what the fuck,
are you fucking unhappy about something?!
girl: (walks away like a pussy)
excuse me,
who are you to tell me what i should do?
you aren't even the class-chairperson,
and the girl who is the class-chairperson is totally cool
with me and Jen handling the whole thing.
and please stop telling me that i'm rude.
in case you have fucking forgotten,
one year ago (before God came into your pathetic life) ,
you were the poster-girl for Totally Rude.
i will not be bossed around by someone who isn't any better than me.
not smarter, not prettier, and definitely not more mature.

on a happier note,
i like my class now
(:
most of my classmates are friendly and supah-nice .

2008-01-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

Supersoak That Hoe

zomg everyone's birthday is coming,

and i am vellivelli broke thankyouvellimuch.

Amanda, Abbee, Krystal (i remembered!),

Bernard, Ben, Adrian +++

roar.

moving on!

if you hear Jen the Hoe saying i'm a Donkey Hoe,

it ain't true.

she the hoe.

Jen : "where are all the virgins that bin laden promised me?"

me: (points to Clare) "ah there."

get it get it?

because i'm Osama and Jen is Mohammad.

ooh wellz,

spot check tmr in school!

(yeh they actually told us that there's gon' be spot check tmr)

heeheehee exciting muchos.

YO!

IJ GIRLZ ARE KNOWN FOR OUR BAND 1 BEHAVIOUR!

WATCH OUTZXZ .

i'm not sure why i'm so affected by all of this.

i wish i wasn't,

but i can't help but remember all the things you said,

all the songs you sang,

all the shit we've been through together.

you said you were always gon' be there for me,

now you're gone.

don'tchu remember our pinky promise when we were little?

BFFs 4eva

all this just for some chick.

2008-01-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

The Way I Are

(do you know what you've started?

i just came here to party,

but now we're rocking on the dance flo' acting naughty.)

it's sundaaaay morning! (12.16 a.m)

anyways,

school on friday was 0-kay i guess.

Mdm Hong (mt 'cher) hatez Jen and i,

she ignores us all the time.

aaaand my new accounts teacher,

Mr Ang Zikai Joe talks superly fast.

guess what,

my name in his class is Osama,

and Jen's name is Mohammad Ali

(and she's the rep, woo-fucking-hoo)

i wish Clare, Jaz, Gabs, Ash +++ were in our class

lunched at macs,

bought a frickin happy meal for a small girl,

and she only took the toy so i had to go round asking random people :

"hi, wouldchu like a happy meal?"

so as not to waste the food.

blah.

~~today~~ saturday,

huge drama-mama scene involving my maid and mom.

in the end my mom sent the maid back to the agency .

hung with the clique, finally.

back when Mark Walhberg was Marky Mark,

this is how we used to get the party started.

we used to mix Hen' with Bacardi Dark,

and when it kicks in you can hardly talk .

by the sixth gin you're gonna crawl,

you'll be sick then and you'll probably barf .

and my prediction is you're gonna probably fall

either somewhere in the lobby or the hallway wall .

in a couple of minutes that bottle of Guiness is finished,

you are now allowed to officially slap bitches .

you also have the right to remain violent and start wilin'.

now every face looks the same,

they've got no name .

so i don't need a game to play,

i just say whatever i want to whoever i want,

whenever i want, wherever i want, however i want .

but i do show some respect to few .

cause ecstacy's got me standing next to you,

getting sentimental as fuck ,

spillin' my guts out to you.

we just met but i think i'm in love withchu!

if i could take it all back now,

i wouldn't .

i would have did more shit that people said that i shouldn't have.

i've still got a lot of growing up to do,

and i've still got a whole lot of throwing up to spew .

but when it's all said and done i'll be 60,

and before i know it i'll be on the porch telling stories

with a bottle of Jack and two grandkids on my lap

babysitting for my daughter while she's out getting smashed .

2008-01-03T17:58:00.000+08:00

Oh, Happy New Year

okay new year's eve turned out waaay better than i expected.

i'll upload the rest of the pictures once Serene and Tess

send them to meeee.

i cant believe school's started,

its only like the second day and i'm sick of school.

my classmates are all so..

okaywhateverwhocaresanyway .

check out Mr Flabber-Whatever

(he has a long name that i cant remember),

Kelly drew him (i helped too!)

the best thing thats happened since school started

was probably finding out that Jen's in my class

and not dropping to NA after all.

Clare and Jaz totally hate their class to the maximum

(sayang sayang)

today tjl fucking caught me for my uniform+hair+whatnot.

Jen and i were walking back to class and

she was like "you, your belt is too low"

then Jen thought it was her, but nooo.

tjl said "no, not you. audrey, come here"

(whatthurfarg, Jen's uniform+hair+whatnot is like mine, he-llo)

and she picked on me head to toe,

fringe, belt, pinafore, socks, nails.
awesomezxz,

dontchu just love tjl!
moving on,

meet my very own Strawberry Shortcake.

(credits to Ianny)

heehee,

i'm a small kid and i love

Strawberry Shortcake + Care Bears + Disney Princesses

Audrey's New Year's Resolutionz:

1. Be more disciplined & focused (in school)

2. Study regularly, and not at the last minute

3. Stop taking cabs so often

4. Spend less

5. Stop getting myself into shit that i can't get myself out of

6. Be less bitchy

7. Stay faithful to those who deserve it

8. Get rid of the pain in my heart

2007-12-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

Only A Wish A Way

sometimes you reach what's real,

just by making-believe .

unafraid, unashamed,

there is joy to be claimed in this world.

and you might even wind up being glad to be you.

each happy ending is a brand new beginning,

forever might even begin today.

2007-12-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

Drug Ballad

i’m sick of this counting game,

a different pill for every problem .

a new pill for everyday.

count out your issues in convenient little bottles labled with a purpose.

one pill for the pain .

two pills to make me sane.

a pill for the sleep.

these pills have got me knee deep.

a bottle of pills to help us write out our wills .

pills, pills, pills.

all these pills are startin' to give me the chills .

one pill for the lies.

two pills to help me open my eyes .

a pill to counteract the pills.

these pills are startin' up unpayable bills.

7 pills a day.

49 pills a week .

210 pills a month .

now i can hardly breathe.

so remember to take your pills every day!

then we can go out and play.

we take our pills by the bulk.

all these pills so that i will no longer sulk.

do not crush or chew,

swallow whole.

take with food,

do not take with alcohol .

may cause drowsiness.

a pill to make you smile.

a pill to make you breathe .

a pill to make you numb .

and another to put your mind at ease.

count out all your problems into boxes marked by days.

take a pill for every issue and let it all fade away .

2007-12-27T20:11:00.000+08:00

He Said, She Said

whazzzaaaap bitches & hoes!

i'm backbackback, yo.

thailand was pretty oh-kay,

shopping wasn't as awesome as i thought it would be .

oh wellz,

Christmas this year didn't feel quite like Christmas.

(although i spent it with my family!)

finally got to catch up with Tessa after like,

36505793866 years .

andandand,

Ian-The-Total-Genius ripped out my right earring from my ear .

(it bled, so now i can't put the stud back in)

the funny thing is,

he gave me earrings for Christmas!

on Boxing Day,

Clare's family invited me over for lunch .

so i went over with flowers, chocolate & perfume for her mom.

her family is so entertaining, really.

then headed to Sean's place,

slept awhile then ate at the coffee shop with him and Zac .

met Clare (again!) in town,

went to get a present.

had to cab back to YCK for no fucking reason,

and Clare was like in her 'omg' mood because of me.

haha sorry for all the trouble, babe (long story).

this morning,

i went over to Tanah Merah to meet Jerome

for his birthday lunch thingywingy .

hung out at his crib while waiting for the rest to come,

then bus-ed to Pizza Hut (yeah he held it at his workplace, gah).

Tessa's (ex)boyfriend was being a total ass towards her.

after lunch,

bus-ed back to Jerome's place to watch a mooovie .

blahblah ,

everyone left except me .

so Jerome and i just walked around and talked cock.

turns out that Colin, who is Tessa's (ex)boyfriend,

was cheating on her .

so she broke up with him today.

what a motherfucker.

i reallyreallyreally wanted to like beat him up with my bare hands.

but i thought about it,

'he-llo Audrey in case you haven't noticed,

the dude is like twice your size. '

so i didn't do anything .

#2 Bunny Doughnuts

#3 Pretty Washroooom

#4 Four-Faced-Buddha(?)

#5 Super Yummy Thai Iced Tea

(i asked Sonya for the recipe)

#6 Ultra Yummy Thai Food

#7

#8 I Love This Bunny

she said,

"why can't we make up like the last time?

i'm just afraid to hear you say 'go' ."

he said,

"baby i'm sorry, but i think it's time we let go."

2007-12-20T20:44:00.001+08:00

Merry Chrizmaz In Advance

i'm flying to Bangkok tmr morning

(at like, 7a.m? yes, that early)

yay, i'm so excited.

and and and i'll be back on Christmas eve,

probably touch down around noon.

the next time i'll be able to come online to blog

will be after Christmas i think .

so here's to everyone who reads my mundane-to-the-maximum blog :

A Very Merry Christmas To You All

and i hope you guys have an awesome year ahead.

Hugs & Kisses,

Me.

2007-12-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

Walking Disaster

i'm heading towards a major major breakdown .

i'll admit,

no matter how big a smile a hide behind,

i'm not happy okay?

not at all .

i dont want to love you anymore .

i dont want to wake up everyday,

knowing for a fact that you're not missing me.

my bestfriends would know this,

i need attention.

and that's exactly what you can't give me .

i'm your perfect Barbie,

your dream baby.

if only i could make myself believe it.

2007-12-19T15:42:00.000+08:00

If I Was Beautiful,

Would You Date Me On The Regular?

HELLO EVERYONE,

I'M FREAKISHLY HAPPY AND YEAH,

MY LIFE IS PURRR-FECTO RIGHT NOW!

so dont ask whazzzap with me (please?).

oookay whatever.

last night was totally fun,

it really took my mind off everything .

Jason accidentally broke the tiara Adrian gave me,

even before i got to wear it .
i think he was just jealous no one gave him a tiara .

2007-12-19T00:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's Gone

fuck you .

fuck you.

fuck you .

and when the clock strikes twelve,

will you find someone else to go and kiss and tell?

cause ~~you know i never will~~ i already have.

credits to Benny :

"kneel down and beg, like the pussy you are ."

2007-12-18T13:36:00.001+08:00

Make Your Move

OHMYGOD

I AM SO PISSED OFF NOW.

I WOKE UP AT LIKE 12,

AND WENT TO TAKE A SHOWER.

AFTER THAT ONE OF MY EXTENSIONS DROPPED

OFF WHILE I WAS TOWEL-DRYING MY HAIR.

NOT ONLY THAT OKAY?

I CANT BELIEVE IT.

YOU ARE SUCH A MOTHERFUCKER.

PROBABLY THE GRAND MOTHERFUCKER

OF ALL MOTHERFUCKERS.

I GAVE YOU A SECOND CHANCE AND

YOU PROMISED ME ALL KINDS OF THINGS.

NOW, THIS?

I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS,

WHEREVER YOU ARE.

I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR BULLSHIT/EMPTY PROMISES.
YEAH I' M SURE YOU'RE MISSING ME

OH-SO-FUCKING-MUCH .

LETS JUST BREAK UP,

AGAIN .

(SCREAMS)

2007-12-17T21:08:00.000+08:00

Let It Enfold You

ch-ch-check it out bitches and hoes!

i've got extensions (:

had lunch with Andy and Ian in town today,

then Andy had to go so Ian and i went Chrizmaz shopping .
met Clare and walked around,

visited Alex in Paragon (he works at X Square[?])

i wanted to get my dad a tie there so

Alex the Great managed to gimme a discount

then we headed to cine and got extensions outside,

at this flea market place .

(I got black & pink, Clare got red)

me vellivelli happy.

2007-12-16T22:45:00.001+08:00

Happy Full Moon Baby Shane!

Little Shane is my cousin's kid,

and he is sooo adorable (:

so yeah,

it's been a month since he was born .

and there was like a party thrown for him.

2007-12-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

Say Goodbye

#1 Kim's Pretty Christmas Tree

#2 Don't Ask

#4 Kim's Pig, Which I Like Alot

#5 Bla & Stef

#6 Michelle

#7 Food! Food!

#8 Monster

#9 Kim Has A Room For Keeping Big (Expensive) Fish

#10 Watching Telly, Please Don't Kachow
--

class party of the year was on wednesday!

i really have to say a huge thank you to all the

class committee members for not only organising the party,

but also for tahan-ing my rubbish this year .

(i was class Vice-Chairperson last year,

this year i'm nothing. gee, i wonder why.)

it was held at Kim's place,

and it was soo much better than expected!

it was Sean's 18th that day too

big time fun baby.

2007-12-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

"cause i dont think it'll be good for anyone of us if we still stay together.

it's like you're losing your feelings for me and i'm getting tired .

yeah so i guess we'll just go our seperate ways yeah.

yeah hope you'll enjoy the christmas present.

take care of yourself okay?"

I'M WORTH ONE FUCKING TEXT MESSAGE.

IF ANY OF YOU ARE HOPING SOME BOY'S

GONNA COME ALONG AND SWEEP YOU OFF YOUR FEET,

GIRL,

YOU BETTER RUN THE FUCKING FASTEST YOU CAN.

(IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION)

go if you wanna go,

stay if you wanna know the way through the mess we've made,

and lie in the bed you know.

or you could go.

for all the love we've made,

just one thing stays the same .

the lamp gets dusty,

the pipes get rusty .

and your love for me was never quite there.

2007-12-10T14:27:00.000+08:00

Tongue Tied

friday,

hung out with Daryl for a few hours in town

(yes, i haven't met him in almost a year!).

then met up with Sean to shop for his mom's birthday present.

dinner at changi village :D

saturday,

went Christmas shopping with mommy dearest!

bought perfumes/colognes, make-up and some clothes.

headed down to Clarke Quay for dinner/supper .

sunday as usual was Family Day.

today,

i just woke up

(2.32 p.m)

oh!

sorry there haven't been many pictures,

haven't felt cam-whorish in a while .

i stare up at the stars,

and wonder just where you are,

you feel a million miles away.

was it something i said,

or something i never did .

or was i always in the way?

can someone tell me what to say to just make you stay .

i need a little more luck than a little bit,

cause everytime i get stuck,

the words won't fit.

and everytime that i try,

i get tongue tied,

i need a little good luck to get me by .

i need a little more help than a little bit ,

like the perfect one word noones heard yet.

cause everytime that i try,

i get tongue tied,

i need a little good luck to me by this time.

2007-12-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

Santa, I've Been An Awfully Good Girl

Hello Mr Santa Claus,

this is Audrey here!

I'd like all these things for Christmas.

#1 Alexander McQueen
Purple Silk Duchesse High Collared Mini Dress

#2 Vera Wang

Shantung Asymmetric Dress

#3 Christian Louboutin
Goya Suede Ankle Boots

#4 Louis Vuitton
Noe in Damier Azur Canvas

Thank you dear Santa (:
Love,
Me.
--

so tell me,
who needs boys now?

2007-12-06T17:13:00.000+08:00

CrushCrushCrush

went shopping with Sean yesterday

for clothes to wear this saturday for his cousin's wedding.

i swear,

if i had a choice,

i would never shop with him ever again.

he's so indecisive and and and,

he didn't even know what he wanted!

halfway his cousin, Zac and friend, Joey

(let's call them Angsty & Fiesty) joined and left us .

despite the fact that it was raining and i was tired,

i still had fun (:

it was Ed's 19th yesterday too!

2007-12-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

9 months,

and it all comes down to this :

'a short break' and many dates ahead .
i'll miss you .

2007-12-04T01:42:00.000+08:00

much thanks to Sean for sharing his insight on life and love with me.

yeah ,

screw the world.

who needs love anyway?

2007-12-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

The Boys Of Summer Have Gone Home

i'm really lazy to tell ya'll exactly what i did over the weekend.

so the main points:

Aubrey's fucking awesome party, manicure, work, granny's birthday, family.

(oh and i meant my dead granny)

i dont have many pictures with me right now.

gymed ~~today~~yesterday.

(it's 1a.m on tuesday now)

whatever,

i feel so fucked up right now .

oh fuck,

i should just go.

say hello to my work (data entry)

2007-11-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

P.S I Love You

i hate it when you're away,

i wish things weren't this way .

my heart hurts,

and i don't know when it'll stop.

2007-11-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

i must’ve missed your message,

you got it wrong,

it wasn’t what your friend said .

i can tell by your tone,

that i’ve taken it too far again.

just when i thought i'd gone and fixed it all again .

your friends are telling you that you've gotta move on.

and just when i thought i'd gone and wrecked it all again,

you turned around so i could tell you what took so long .

now i’m just dying just to see you again .

i should've known,

but i took you and i for granted .

i've gotta let you know,

that i was never underhanded .

my friends are telling me they saw you with someone .

my last mistake,

putting my friends first .

i tried to laugh it off but i made things worse .

what you give is always what you get,

but there's so much i haven't given yet.

i wonder if you could give me another second chance .

instead of holding you,

i was holding out .

i should’ve let you in,

but i let you down .

you were the first to give,

i was the first to ask.

now i’m in second place,

to get a second chance .

2007-11-25T18:31:00.001+08:00

You're A Heartbreaker,

Dream maker,

Love Taker.

saturday,

spent the evening chilling out

while listening to Sean play his guitar and sing 'pretty songs'.

headed to Clarke Quay for dinner .

went home,

then got a text from Justin at 2 in the morning :

I'm so high i could fly now baby!

which was followed by a phone call :

Hey baby,

i'm drunk and having sooo much fun!

(Hollaback Girl was playing loudly in the background)

okay i love youuuu!

and after that Sean called and decided that

he wanted to come over to hang out,

explaining that he was feeling emo and lonely .

(i suspect he was bullshitting, he obviously missed me haha)

yes,

i snuck him into my home at 3am without anyone knowing.

he left at 5plus to bus home.

i slept after he left,

till about noon?

then i brought Reyan out.

ooookay,

i'm going to take a nap before dinner now.

2007-11-23T18:39:00.000+08:00

The Good Life

i really, really, really have to hit the gym.

like soon,

before i become scarily obese .

yesterday i woke up at 12 and was online till 8,

took a break to watch telly,

and then went back on at 11 till 3+ in the morning.

today i woke up at 1 and i've been online ever since.

which makes it about 6 hours.

see what i mean?

but i've had quite a few entertaining conversations :

jerome says:
go shopping with you? i need to bring what $1000?

i confirm spend like crazy.
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
spend on me
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
investment
jerome says:
HAHA. no returns ah
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
a hug?
jerome says:
eh like that shouldnt it be the other way round
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
you wanna hug me?
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
oh also can
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
free hug and free clothes
jerome says:
eh what do you take me for ah
jerome says:
bloody hell. HAHA.
(and then we started talking about his ex)

jerome says:
remember Vanessa?
jerome says:
she loved me but she didnt know how to show it
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
whos vanessa -.-
jerome says:
my ex girlfr, the problemetic one
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
i thought it was eleanor?!
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
or michelle

audrey ♥ rockstar says:
hahahhhahahahah
jerome says:
haha NO!
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
eh you got alot of girlfrs eh
jerome says:
no lah
jerome says:
i think you got more
jerome says:
HAHA
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
huh i dont have girlfrs luh

audrey ♥ rockstar says:
i want to be like you
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
got so many girlfrs

jerome says:
please do not turn to the crooked side.
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
if i dont will you bring me shopping!
jerome says:
eh what is this, now threatening me all ah!

audrey ♥ rockstar says:
could you do me a favour?

pretty pretty please with a cherry on top?

(then Sean took 10 million years to reply)

Sean. says:
what's it?
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
oh nevermind
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
someone did it for me already

Sean. says:
hahaha. did what.
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
the favour.

Sean. says:
what's the favour?!

audrey ♥ rockstar says:
oh buckle up my bra

(Sean is very horny)

audrey ♥ rockstar says:
haha
Sean. says:
WAH LAU!

Sean. says:

(you see what i mean?)

audrey ♥ rockstar says:
hahaha i was kidding.

i wanted you to help me download a few songs thats all

#1 Baby Shane, The Day After He Was Born

#2 Imma Freak

#3 Tania

#4 Biggest Nehneh

2007-11-22T14:54:00.000+08:00

You Know You Drive Me Crazy

i hate it that i've become this totally clingy thing.

i used to be me .

now i'm meandyou.

i guess i'm not strong enough or something.

i never thought this would actually happen to me .

i don't think i've had like a major problem with self-confidence

(up till recently of course)

and i could never relate to those dorky articles in

teen magazines that tell you how to raise your self-esteem.

oh and have i mentioned the girls who keep complaining

about their body, face, hair and blah?

newsflash,

i've become one of them.

i used to be totally comfortable in my own skin

(up till recently of course)

maybe it's the whole boyfriend thing .

y'know?

okay maybe you don't.

i won't try to philosophize,

i'll just take a deep breath and look in your eyes .

this is how i feel and it's so surreal.

i've got a closet filled up to the brim

with the ghosts of my past and the scattered sins .

when i think about you,

i never thought that you could break me apart.

i keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart .

i feel a weakness coming on,

and it's never felt so good to be so wrong .

i had my heart on lockdown,

and then you turned me around.

baby, do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

2007-11-21T18:04:00.000+08:00

"He Who Makes A Beast Out Of Himself,

Gets Rid Of The Pain Of Being A Man"

i'm back from never-never-land.

sorry i haven't been online since forever.

my computer was so screwed so i've got a brand new one .

hokay imma upload pictures from Gab's barbecue.

(which was weeks ago)

there are many more but i am, as usual very lazy.

besides,

right now i'm too exhausted to explain what's wrong,

and too exhausted to pretend everything's fine.

--
i've heard all those warm fuzzy sayings

about how it doesn't matter whether you win or lose,

blah blah blah.

or that winning isn't everything.

or all that "do unto others" stuff .

the fact is,

the people who wrote all that crap were losers.

i mean,

lets face it.

winning does matter .

you've got to know what you want and go after it.

and if you don't get it,

you're a loser -

no matter how many feel-good quotes you hide behind.

i like to win,

i really really do.

and you wanna know one of the best things about getting what i want?

making losers out of the people i take it from .

2007-10-31T16:43:00.000+08:00

City Of Evil

i have to type this post out within like 6 seconds .

i'm over at Brian's place now along with the guys.

and they want me to get my ass of this chair to

go do 'Bat Country' all over again for the 87th time.

but whatevah i'm just here to say this to Jen&Clare :

HELLO AND GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR RESTEST!

Jiemeizx you are actually like super ultra clever,

but exam time you don't wanna study so,

too bad for you now must study .

hahaha

and Clare,

you're very clever too but you dunno how to study smart.

you two shouldn't even be online reading this

so if you are switch off the computer and study.

me lubzx you guys to the core.

and i do not care you have to join me in 3/10

kaythanksbye

2007-10-30T21:33:00.000+08:00

Cum Again Christopher Kane

hello little kids,

my name is Audrey and i corrupt little minds!

hahahahahahahah

boyfriend's mom doesn't like me

nevahmind !

i still love boyfriend all the same because he was

totally awesome and came to give Princess a visit just now.

oh guess what,

i'm now a walking talking breathing eating drama student yo!

yeh i made it,

and i went for the Drama meeting yesterday

only to realise that i will be like

super x 74349440 busy once school kicks in.

whatever,

i will be committed this time .

i forgot to mention that i highlighted my hair red?

pweesh,

i still lubzx my jet black hair.

(blogger is being a total bitch today . i can't upload pictures!)

you keep on running away,

making your misery my company.

oh you drive me crazy,

oh you keep bringing me down .

and when you're spinning round & round,

i'm like a psycho going outta control.

open up your eyes,

don't you know that it's your life .

2007-10-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

Sugar, Spice & Everything Nice

#1 Courtesy Of Brian & Nat

#2 Jen & Clare
#3 Patrick Balloon, Courtesy Of Clare & Jen
#4 Miss Clarity Cafe

Huge thank you to all my friends/family members
who bothered to remember/remembered to bother
to call/text me the past few days.
(also to Veek who dropped me a pushpop)
i feel really grateful to have friends/family
who love me and care for me the way they do
(:
Thursday,
Jen & Clare had this "small surprise" for me.
it was sooo cute,
Clare was late? (she lost her way)
and Jen didnt want me to see the surprise so
she made me wait in 7/11 for like super long.
then when everything was "ready",
Jen brought me to Miss Clarity Cafe to meet Clare.
its a very cute place,
but at first we just sat normally and chatted,
then this waitress brought out a Patrick balloon
together with Jen's blueberry pie?
haha which kinda spoiled their surprise,
cause they wanted it to come out with
the cake not the pie .
but it was a pleasant surprise anyway,
i was really sick that day and even though
i could only mutter a feeble thanks and a smile,
please know that i really appreciated all
the trouble you two went through for me
:D
Friday (the last day of school),
i was way too sick to get out of bed so
i missed school and didn't get to say goodbye to classmates.
but anyway,
Brian & Nat skipped school to visit me.
and they got me a custom made Strawberry Shortcake cake.
sorry to you guys too,
for the weak thank you and smile.
i was feeling like monkey shit those two days
(i still am actually)
headed down to Vivo when i was feeling better,
shopped around with my parents.
got a super cute Red Vintage Box Bag by MJ
and some other stuff .
dinner at Marche with my family + godma cause
i was pretty sick of Hyatt and The Fullerton food.
dinner was awesome,
everyone knows Marche's got really good but still cheap food .
walked around the Sky Park
(it was soo pretty but too crowded to i didn't take pictures)
and listened to godma ramble on about me when
i was a small kid in HK .
she said whenever she came over to visit,
she had to get out of the house to smoke so
i would always run up to her and go ,
"Godma! you wanna smoke? i go with you!"
hahaha.
all in all,
although i've been ill this whole week,
i enjoyed it nonetheless.
Adrian, Nick, Jer, Kai and the rest all
promised to make it up to me after the Os.
i miss you guys so much.
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE TAKING Os NOW!

2007-10-24T18:20:00.000+08:00

I Want Them Diamonds & Them Pearls

down with gastric flu,

so i didn't go to school today .

slept till 5 in the evening

haha

i'm forcing my body to get well by tmr cause

i've got a date with Jen and Clare.

it's a surprise?

and i'm freaking out already .

Clare said ,

"For all you know we'll make you shout I AM KING KONG! haha"

2007-10-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

Suck It Up, Biatch .

Glo-fangs that Jenn & Clare gave me

whaaaazzzzap bitches and hoes!

today sucked hardcore

oh well,

i had this urge to put up this friendster link of a girl i know.

but since i am so sweet and all,

i shan't.

haha she told me she's a model .

-jawdrop

she looks like...

yeah you know right.

and like yesterday i was talking to her online,

and like her "boyfriend", Josh started talking to me.

and outright dissing me .

and you all know Audrey ain't gon' take

shit like that from no one .

so yeah i like jacked "him" back till "he" got real pissed .

"he" sounded alot like a girl to me?

i think she was shitting me,

i don't know why but that girl doesn't like me.

aneeeways,

i can't wait till this week is ovah.

i don't wanna try no more,

why do you keep insisting,

when you know our love's gone out the door?

2007-10-22T17:42:00.000+08:00

(This is the spot where i uploaded the video of

Marty Kudelka dancing, but nooooo. Blogger

doesn't want to show it to the world.)

Saturday night,

bought tickets for Overdrive: Dance Party With Marty Kudelka.

in case you don't know,

Marty Kudelka is Justin Timberlake's choreographer .

yeah,

he's the genius who came up with that

sliiide, sliiide, step, move.

went with Serene and Gin,

party started at 11 but we decided to take

a little spin in Serene's new car .

reached about 11 plus.

music was so-so at first then Marty Kudelka and

his two best dancers came and made me fall

in loveeeeee with him!

there were other dancers performing too,

like the local groups (they all sucked).

Marty Kudelka is a-w-e-s-o-m-e .

met Naomi, Gen and Selene there too .

danced a little,

but then again the music was not fantastic.

crashed at Serene's that night.

by the way everybodyyyy,

i've got the new cybershot phone .

and mom said she might get me

the Gucci Boston Bag we saw that day.
Audrey is happpppyyyyyy .

2007-10-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

Picture Post.

(Genting)

#1 Popsicles & Pops

#2 Ferris Wheel
#3 Random Cute Baby

#4 Pretty Swing Ride

#5 Hotel At Night

#6 Jazrella Emo-ing

#7 Night

#8 Carousel (!!!)
#9 Everybodehh

there are more pictures,

but blogger's being a bitch today.

2007-10-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

Whatchu Gon' Do, When They Come For You?

audrey ♥ rockstar says:
im not gangsta
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
im a princess
you think i'm weird? i'm actually just very hungry says:
lol
you think i'm weird? i'm actually just very hungry says:
then what am i
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
badboy
audrey ♥ rockstar says:
(whatchu gon do! whatchu gon do when they come for you!)
you think i'm weird? i'm actually just very hungry says:
i gonna run as fast as i can and hope no one sees me

Justin is one funny guy

2007-10-18T12:54:00.001+08:00

it's about 1 in the afternoon and i just woke up.

decided to give school a miss today,

since there's nothing to do.

yesterday we got back some of our papers.

quite satisfied.

but i failed art theory?

like only someone really stupid could fail art theory .

anyways!

finally saw little Tania after ages.

went to pick her up last night after her "I Can Read" class.

she practically charged out of her classroom

and barrelled over to hug her jiejie.

she even gave me the sticker her teacher

had given her cause she was a good girl.

Hello Clare,

cheer up okay?

you still have me.

2007-10-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

Yo, I'm Back With A Brand New Rap!

hello cyber wordlings.

Audrey is back from her trip to genting!

it was fun fun fun.

i am too lazy to blog about the whole trip.

all i have to say is that genting was way too packed?

everyone else should've just gone home

to like study/work and leave the place to us.

but whatever.

and the hotel + coach sucked big time.

pictures really soon!

(pssst i've finalleh gotten my barbie polaroid, its called popsicles)

2007-10-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

Baby I'm Going On An Aeroplane,

& I Don't Know When I'll Be Back Again .

no i'm kidding,

i'm taking a coach (not an aeroplane as mentioned above)

to genting with Jenn, Jaz, Eunice and Amanda this saturday!

Clare can't come with us

oh well,

and i actually do know when i'm coming back,

which is on monday.

so this morning i went to Mt Elizabeth

with my mom for her pap smear .

for weeks my mom has been telling

me that her damned uterus is dropping .

(?!?!)

and guess what,

it's true!

whatever,

she was totally normal about it,

as if your uterus dropping would be a perfectly okay thing.

we went shopping after her check-up!

gosh,

retail therapy is love.

and it's satisfying coming home with big bags

of stuff and tired sore feet.

i've got this weird obsession with carousels.

i hope there's a carousel in genting .

2007-10-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

just watch,

cause one day i'm gonna be beautiful

exams are over!

(screams)

yay,

HELLO FREEDOM .

it was really hot out just now,

so i decided to head out to the pool

and soak up the sun with my ipod in tow .

it was burninggggg,

so now i'm like one or two shades darker

i hope my tan won't fade .

i just lay there baking for more than an hour,

thinking about my drama audition.

we got our confirmation letter thingy,

and i have to prepare a 3-5 minute monologue

based on either Slavery, Desire or Consequence.

i thought up of something that would

involve all three themes .

i hope it works out.

did i mention that someone's selling me his barbie polaroid?!

yeah

gonna collect it on friday.

Audrey is very very happy .

My Top Ten Wants (Right Now) :

1. shop till i fucking drop

2. money to drop from the sky

3. a strawberry shortcake balloooon

4. new makeup kit

5. Avenged Sevenfold's Waking The Fallen

6. polaroid film to drop from the sky

7. my barbie polaroid camera

8. late nights with the clique

9. new phone

10. ben & jerry's cherry garcia

2007-10-09T14:33:00.000+08:00

i think the math department in ij was planning mass murder?

if anyone asks,

tell them i wanted A7X at my funeral.

(edited)

note to Benjamin :

don't try anything funny okay!

i don't like surprises,

they make me scared/nervous.

haha so yes,

don't try anything funnyyyyyy .

2007-10-08T20:15:00.000+08:00

Hush Now, It Won't Be Long

yayyy!

i've got like most of my papers over and done with.

only math and chinese left .

(runs around like a mad chicken)

so yeah,

today i screwed up my chem again,

so i left the classroom feeling anal .

my heart is broken,

but i have some glue .
help me inhale,
& mend it with you .
we'll float around,
& hang out on clouds.
then we'll come down with a hangover.
skin the sun,
then fall asleep.
wish away,
but the soul is cheap .
yes, lesson learned,
so wish me luck.
soothe the burn & wake me up.

2007-10-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

no way,

i'd be lying if i said i was happy to let you walk away .

i'm standing here right outside your door,

& i don't think my heart can take much more.

i'm scared of cracking up again,

& i just want it to be like it was before.

is this the way the night's gonna end?

you said you need some time,

but how long does it take for you to see

that we're more than meant to be.

2007-10-07T12:14:00.000+08:00

AS CRUEL AS SCHOOL CHILDREN

okay so after my geog paper on friday,

i felt like i'd just been ass-raped by a huge animal.

probably a hippo, or an elephant .

okay whatever,

it murdered me.

like seriously.

ah fuck it,

byebye to A2/B3 for geog .

anyways,

last night my mom told me something that changed my life .

yeah, no shit.

she knows Derek Lam .

hello Mr Lam,

if you're reading this,

please please please please come and adopt me.

do your good friend a favour and rid her of her

disgusting daughter who spends too much .

you could be my sugar daddy!

c'mon, do a good deed.

right,

just that day Jenn, Clare and i

realised that our conversations have been

brought up to this whole new exciting level.

wooo,

intellectuals now.

and we also realised that the more we bitch,

the uglier we get?

so yeah.

you,

stop bitching.

(edited)

alright!

i just had tuition and i'm really bored .

so i decided to blog again.

i think the world would be a much better place without boys .

don't you think so?

all of a sudden i don't feel like blogging anymore.

kaythanksbye .

2007-10-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

ohmygosh,

you will so not believe this.

my barbie polaroid is broken.

she is dead.

ohmygosh .

like the mailing people broke her?

so i havent even got to SEE her yet ,

and poof!

she's gone and never coming back.

i was so upset when i found out .

i reeeeallly hope someone else sells their camera to me.

i want that barbie polaroid so badly.

so far,

i've already taken my English, History & Lit papers.

all do-able,

but i think if i studied harder i could have done better for lit.

anyways!

tmr's Geog and i think i'm gonna screw up .

whatever.

might be going over to Nick's to chill after that .

2007-10-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

Baby, Where'd You Get That Body From?

Yeah, I Got It From My Momma .

i can't stand people who sink so low,

just to get attention/friendship.

it really appalls and disgusts me .

i am one person who can't handle exam stress.

i got like this huge migraine this morning.

i thought i was gonna keel over and die.

but whatever.

i'm okay now!

one more thing,

sorry my posts nowadays are so boring .

it's just that,

i have no life,

i have to study.

i have no life,

i have to study.

2007-10-01T19:41:00.000+08:00

say hello to dope.

dope is my to-be camera.

it's taking an aeroplane!

from america just to meet me.

yayyyyy.

(much thanks to Jiemeizx's aunt for this one)

anyways,

i got like so mad at a certain bitch yesterday .

i swear,

it was unreal how fucked i was.

Praise The Lord for Absolut Vodka,

if not i think i would've died.

2007-09-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

Meet Dora The Explorer

i think Singaporeans are like, so rude.

this morning i was trying to get a cab,

and guess what!

like people kept cutting in front of me everytime

i flagged a friggin' cab.

who does that?

i was so pissed off by the time the sixth person
did that to me i was practically ready

to run up to the bloody bitch and slap

ther motherfucker's face inside out.

why?

cause' i was standing in the sun for

god-knows-how-long just baking.

i swear it was like 335160 degrees out there.

so just before i was about to

run up to the inconsiderate motherfucker,

someone called me.

i picked up my phone thinking it was Brian,

and shouted ,

"WHAT THE FUCK! 6 PEOPLE HAVE

STOLEN MY FUCKING CABS SO FAR AND FUCK IT

THIS DAMNED BITCH IS THE 7th! I'M GONNA FUCKING

SLAP HER APE-FACE INSIDE OUT!!!!!"

it wasn't Brian,

it was my mom.

yikes,

so she was all like ,

"okay okay, i'll come and pick you up"

i still can't get over the whole thing.

INCONSIDERATE PIECES OF MONKEY SHIT.

(screams!)

2007-09-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

It Only Makes Us Stronger

three hardcore hours of math is bound

to make anyone go crazy .

i'm mentally exhausted.

don't know if i can continue like this.

anyways.

decided to do a quiz!

The person who tagged you is

Jennifer

Your relationship with him/her is
Jiemeizx (inside ahlian joke)

5 impressions you have of him/her
Airhead! Haha kidding, the best Jiemeizx ever (: , funny, crazy, great to laugh at and she's an awesome friend.

The most memorable thing he/she has done for you

The little things are the ones that count right?

The most memorable words he/she has said to you

Fuck you lah.

If he/she becomes your lover, you will

Teach her not to be so air-head-ish but I will still lubzx her loads.

If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be

Her air-headness and also her bad habit of dreaming about things like there's no school the next day or whatever.

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will
Uh, treat her like one?

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be

No ideaaaaa.

The most desirable thing you want to do for to him/her now is

Something I do not want anyone to know -winkwink

Your overall impression of him/her is

great

How you think people around you will feel about you

Ask them

The characteristic you love about yourself is

I am humble (HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA oh the irony)

The characteristic you hate about yourself is.

Laziness.

The most ideal person you want to be is

Brian (no I'm kidding)

For people that care and like you, say something to them

Lick my backside (again, I am kidding) Thank you lovelies!

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you

1. Clare

2. Zachary
3. Brian
4. Natalli
5. Benjamin
6. Kai
7. Jerome
8. Jessica
9. Gabby
10. Nick

Who is no.6 having a relationship with?

(Kai)
Not in a relationship

Is no.9 a male or female?

(Gabby)
Female (although she greatly resembles Michael Jackson)

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

(Jerome & Nick)
I guess so? Cause both their girlfrs don’t want them anymore.

What is no.2 studying?

(Zachary)
The art of farting silently.

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

(Brian)
Like 20 minutes ago.

What kind of music does no.8 like?

(Jessica)
Hip-hop, yo

Does no.1 has any siblings?

(Clare)
Hell, yeah. Two sisters and an extremely freaky older brother who barks and makes bird noises.

Will you woo no.3?

(Brian)
He has to stop gaying around first. And anyways, he’s been my bestfr since we were like tiny. So it would be weird if we were together.

How about no.7?

(Jerome)
Noooo!

Is no.4 single?

No ): she is dating a gdhalhdagfghjd hot NUM model.

What's the surname of no.5?

(Benjamin)
Chia!

What's the hobby of no.4?

Making me feel super fugly, no not really.
She likes to go to the beach.

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?

(Benjamin & Gabby)
They know each other but they're not close.

Where is no.2 studying at?

(Zachary)
School For The Farting Retards

Say something casual about no.1 -

(Clare)
Weirdest bestfr one can have

Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?

(Jessica)
Yes, but she rejected me because she said my smile was weird.

Where does no.9 live?

(Gabby)
Never-never Land

What colour does no.4 like?

(Natalli)
Red

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

(Benjamin & Clare)
Nopes, but they are relatively good friends.

Does no.7 like no.2?

(Jerome & Zachary)
Gee, that's impossible. Zach's farts are really a major turn off, even for someone like Jerome.

How did you get to know no.2?

(Zachary)
Ascension

Does no.1 have any pets?

(Clare)
A dog called Bonjo who likes to hump my leg.

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

(Jerome)
He likes to think so.

2007-09-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

Dig This Shit, Haters

late night walks

what i wrote to motivate myself

got the english papers 1 & 2 done with ,

so it's just like,

3562219 papers more to go!

yayyyyyyy (:

hokay ,

studied with Jenn at macs.

or rather,

attempted to study .

whatever,

we needed to relax anyway.

then at 3 ben came along,

and burst my bubbles.

like literally.

you can buy these bubble thingys for

just 60 cents (one whole packet)!

fun much.

hokay deprived childhood .

2007-09-23T16:22:00.000+08:00

Mr Glassman, I See Right Through You

everyone seems to be amused by my

"good looking guy" post .

haha,

gee i wonder why .

anyways!

audrey has been mugging , like crazy.

it's unreal ,

my little brain cannot take so much stress.

it's okay audrey!

two weekends and it'll be all over .

you can do ittttt,

studying is fun!

oh man,

who am i trying to kid?

2007-09-21T20:41:00.000+08:00

UPSIDE DOWN & INSIDE OUT

how many kids out there hate their moms?
i know i do, sometimes.
but deep down , i know i love her.
and i always will .
we might fight and scream at each other really often,
but we'll patch up in a matter of days.
seeing her cry and worry,
makes me feel really disappointed with myself.
i've always been her little princess.
i remember back in hong kong,
when i was about 5 ,
i was all dressed up in my fairy princess costume for Halloween.
i stood before the mirror and said to myself ,
“i wish i had a sister”
apparently ,
my mom overheard me and she cried all night .
i’m her one and only baby girl.
i so badly wanna prove to her that i can be a good girl,
get good grades,
be more responsible,
and of course show her that i love her.
since i was little,
my mom brought me up without the help of my dad .
she always gave me whatever i wanted.
the latest toys,
the prettiest dress,
the best crayons.
she gave me the best,
and nothing less.
i'm going to grow up,
get a good job,
get a nice big house and a nice big car for my mom.
i'm gonna give her what she gave me,
the best .
I Love You Mom .

2007-09-21T20:16:00.000+08:00

PICKCHAS FROM YESTERDAY'S AFTERNOON STUDY .

this is what Jenn and i wrote,

and we faced it towards the teacher .

nerding around with "Chicken Little" specs (:

Clare's too cool for you .

2007-09-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

my internet connection is so screwed .

anyways,

went for afternoon study with the crazy bitches.

haha it was boring/fun .

but i don't think i wanna go again next week

blah,

the exams are coming so soon .
i'm stressing out to the point that

i think i am going to break out in fugly pimples !

seeing as i have never had three pimples at once before,
it is quite a scary thought.

i need a miracle to pass my math and science .

okay maybe not a miracle,

but i just need to work ultra x 432565608-ly hard .

mug hard fellow students

i have no life .

i must study .

i have no life .

i must study.

2007-09-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

Everybody's Got A Drug Dealer On Speed Dial

some time ago in town,

this lady stopped Ben and i in the middle of the road :

Lady : (looks at Ben) excuse me, we're looking

for good looking guys to be models for us.

Ben: uh, no thanks

Lady: (turns to me) and how about you?

Me: uh, i'm not a good looking guy.

2007-09-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

Polaroids, Holidays & Piercings

mommy,

i want a new digi/polaroid camera .

and i also wanna fly to Bangkok/Genting

with the crazy bitches Jiemeizx and Clare after the exams .

pretty pleeeeease .

i'll be a real good girl!

p.s. not forgetting my hip surface piercing!

(will get a picture soon to show you what it's like)

2007-09-18T13:39:00.000+08:00

met up with Kyrie on saturday!

havent seen her since last year's Ak christmas bash .

rah,

so we just hung about and after that she walked me to

the mrt station cause i'm a transport idiot , remember?

anyways,

saturday and sunday were good days.

got loads of free stuff.

a bag and shades from mango,

havianas (from Ian),

a "new" phone (also from Ian),

bag from Natalli .

yesterday's recess was fun .

pubic face stared at jen, clare and i so

we decided to be nice to her since

her life sucks so badly .

i swear you totally should check out her blog,

you'd laugh your balls off fo' sure.

post 1: my life suuuucks

post 2: life sucks, its not worth living

post 3: my life sucks!!!!!

maybe its cause her hair's texture's like pubic hair,

i mean,

if i had hair like hers,

i would rebond my hair like ten times.

plus,

i heard she tried to be a model,

but got rejected.

rah,

whatever .

have a happy life,

ugly thing .

2007-09-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

You Kiss Me Like An Over-Dramatic Actor

they hit you at home & they hurt you at school,

they hate you if you're clever & they despise a fool,

'till you're so fucking crazy you can't follow the rules .

they've tortured & scared you for so many years,

then they expect you to pick a career .

but you can't really function ,

you're so full of fear .

they'll keep you doped with religion, sex & teevee,

you think you're so clever,

classless & free.

but you're still a fucking peasant as far as i can see .

there's room at the top,

but first you must learn how to smile while you kill .

a working class hero is something to be!

well,

if you want to be a hero then just follow me .

just follow me .

2007-09-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

ULTIMATE SUCKFEST

OHMYGOD

I AM FEELING SO DAMN ANAL RIGHT NOW,

I THINK I JUST MIGHT STAB MYSELF WITH A CORN COB.

OHMYGOD

I LEFT MY PHONE SOMEWHERE IN SCHOOL

(I CANNOT REMEMBER WHERE)

AND ALL THE DOOFUSES HAVING

REMEDIAL RIGHT NOW (IN SCHOOL!!!)

AREN'T PICKING UP MY CALLS.

DAMNIT .

I AM SUCH A FUCKER,

ITS NOT FUNNY.

2007-09-09T18:36:00.000+08:00

okay

on saturday Ben and i towned ,

then we watched Apartment.

it was like this funny mix-up,
cause we were supposed to watch No Reservations

but the lady printed tickets for another show

and we didnt realise till we walked into the hall.

but whatever ,

it sucked like big timeeee.

shopped around ,

then had dinner at Chijmes.

the rest of the night was a big blur .

anyways!

HAPPY BELATED 16th BIRTHDAY CHANEL,

& 20th TO IAN!

speaking of Ian,

number 1 :

i cannot believe he's 20.

number 2 :

i cannot believe he's going to serve NS next week .

my brother,

in the army?

what is the government doing?

by the way,

i passed :

History,

EMath (zomg!),

and Chinese (triple zomg!)

i'm getting the rest of my results tmr .

2007-09-07T11:09:00.000+08:00

it's 11 in the morning ,

and i've got my black face on.

why?

cause' i got about a million phone

calls from 9-10 so i gave up trying to sleep.

rahhh!

speaking of phone calls,

on wednesday night Krystal

called me up (:

a few things i concluded from that long phone call :

she isn't the flat-chested, blur (still a little),

good little angel i used to know.

now she's a hardcore bitch .

hahah no, just kidding .
but yeah,

she's changed alot.

which is a good thing ,

cause i guess she's not as gullible as before.

but she's still as clumsy for sure.

paint your smile on your lips,

& blood red nails on your fingertips .

a school boys dream,

you act so shy .

your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye .

2007-09-06T21:36:00.001+08:00

lunched with Nat at King Albert's Park macs

after drama today.

then we went over to her place to

watch episode after episode of Prison Break

with her brother .

(why the hell is Wentworth Miller gay?!)

camwhored after the air-con people left

it's been 546343235 years since Nat

and i spent time together !

well,

today was good,

lazing around and catching up.

pictures soon (:

Sweetie,

i know it's hard when the person you love,

loves your good friend instead .

stay strong okay?

no matter what,

you can always count on me to be here for you.

xoxo

2007-09-05T13:04:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune & fame,

I'd even cut my hair & change my name .

2007-09-05T12:43:00.000+08:00

crashed on the floor when i moved into

this little bungalow with some strange new friends,

i stay up too late,

& i'm too thin.

we promised each other it's till the end .

now we're spinning empty bottles,

it's the five of us,

with pretty eyed boys girls would die to trust .

i've been through the nose of an inside joke,

& i'm so excited,

i haven't spoken .

& she's so pretty,

& she's so sure .

maybe i'm more clever than a girl like her.

summer's all in bloom,

summer's ending soon .

maybe i'm a little bit over my head,

i've come undone at the things he said .

but he's so funny in his bright red shirt,

we were all in love ,

& we all got hurt .

so, i sneak into his car's cracked leather seat,

with the smell of gasoline in the summer heat .

boy, we're going way too fast,

& it's all too sweet to last.

it's alright,

so i put myself in his hands .

love, or something ignites in my veins,

& i pray it never fades .

my first time,

it's hard to explain .

the rush of blood,

oh,

& a little bit of pain .

it was a cloudy day,

it's more common than you think .

he was my very first mistake.

we gave each other up so easily,

these silly little wounds will never mend .

i feel so far from where i've been,

so i go,

& i will not be back here again .

i lied,

& wrote my injuries all in the dust .

in my heart remains the five of us.

& you,

maybe you'll remember me .

what i gave is yours to keep .

2007-09-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

going to starve

the world cried, the night you died.

and guess what?

i'm no good at suicide .

2007-09-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hello There, Greedy

when everything feels like the movies,

you bleed just to know you're alive.

2007-09-03T16:55:00.000+08:00

clare and her short hair

school would be meaningless without
Clare and Jenn (:
although they're both not in my class.
still,
wo ai ni men liang ge.
(i love you two)
so yeah,
went for literature remedial
this morningggggg
:/
then watched clare and her group
rehearse their drama exam piece.
cute much !
it was raining superly heavy and
we didn't have an umbrella so
Clare and i ran to the interchange.
we got soaked ):
hung out at macs for a little then
bus-ed home all cold and wet .
Clare's dog, Bonjo is sick!
D:
poor thing,
he used to like humping my leg.

2007-09-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

watched Bourne Ultimatum today.

zomgxxxxxxx

it was bloody awesome .

nat was screaming?

so yeah.

holidays are here baby.

we're already beautiful

2007-09-01T17:48:00.000+08:00

after the whole teachers day thing yesterday,

Clare and Jenn followed me home to

get the skinnies we had to pass to

our customers (p_aperbags.lj),

cabbed to town and passed them their stuff,

bought my pink skinnies :D

met up with Ben and walked around .

bumped into like so many unexpected people ,

jacq, pet si, charms, belly

and like ten other people.

chilled at Gelare before Clare and Ben went off.

then jiemeizxz and i walked around

looking for scarves.

which we found and jenn

bought it at 10 bucks.

i found another one which i liked,

and it only costed 5 bucks so i got it (:

met up with mom for dinner

at the Pierside Kitchen + Bar .

yummy .

he was always giving her attention,

working hard to buy the things she mentioned .

he was dedicated,

that girl was fine,

but she didn't appreciate him .

2007-08-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

my art exam piece

CAs are over baby.

math was like a fucking bitchxzxz!

damnit

i dont think i can pass math for EOYs
):

howwww?

oh check out jenn's August 29th post!

http://www.xanga.com/halfwaycrazy

funny much (:

anyways,

past few days have been shitty .

i cannot wait till tmr.

I want.

2007-08-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

damnit.

still feeling fucking anal right now .

I Love You.

maybe all these months meant very little

to you or whatever .

but it's been really amazing just

knowing you .

all the little things you do,

like waiting super duper long for me

everytime we go out,

surprising me with small cute things you know i'll like,

calling just to tell me you miss me,

and everything else you've sacrificed for me .

saying "I Love You" isn't enough,

i know that now.

you run in the dark through a firefight,

& i would explode just to save your life.

so let me light up the sky,

light it up for you .

let me tell you why,

i would die for you.

let me make this mine ,

i'll ignite for you.

2007-08-26T10:43:00.000+08:00

I was mugging, really.

i feel so shitty today,

it's like unreal.

so last night i studieeed.

yay for me.

brian kept distracting me with like ,

ice cream .

buttttt!

the great audrey didn't give in to temptation .

yeah,

so i'm pretty pleased with myself for

staying up late and mugging .

screw exams .

oh by the way,

who's going for the Funeral For A Friend gig?

2007-08-23T19:24:00.001+08:00

Navel piercing next, yo.

i love you two airheads,

Jenn & Clare .

2007-08-20T19:03:00.000+08:00

i've seen a woman cry .

i've seen a woman shoutout,

afraid of losing the man she loves .

i've seen a man lying to his wife flat out,

'bout who he's been with & where he was.

i've seen them both fight,

& tried to figure it out.

this fight isn't going anywhere .

i've seen a child's eyes watching her parents freak out .

i know they see her but they just don't care .

i've seen a child's eyes.

i've seen her living in doubt ,

not ever knowing what it's like to be in love.

i've seen her friends trying to help her get out.

she never told them what the problem really was .
i've seen a suicide.

she couldn't figure it out .

she blamed herself 'cause they couldn't get along .

i've seen her parents eyes,

trying to figure it out.

where did our baby go & what went wrong?

2007-08-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

Hate Is A Strong Word,

But I Really Really Don't Like You

yeah,

so i haven't been to school for two days.

basically i've been home bumming

out watching Dance Life & whatever

shit that's on teevee .

sorry jenn i backed out on

you today though i told you i'd

follow you to get the stock.

i love you jiemeizx.

by the way,

both of us have started a blog shop!

SUPPORT OKAY LOVELIES ?

www.p-aperbags.livejournal.com

we haven't uploaded much,

but look out for new stuff yeah .

they should be up by next week.

yeah whatever,

check it out yourself!

anywaaaays,

i've decided to get off my fat ass

and start mugging for the

End Of Year Exams .

guess what,

it's like in 5 weeks time i think.

so Clare and i are going to

attempt to study together .

zomgx.

Audrey!

time to wake up and start

studying (like really) you fucking lazy bitch.

2007-08-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

fucked up.

i miss my Gucci .

i miss my piercing.

i miss Natalie Yong.

2007-08-14T19:10:00.000+08:00

Baby, I Wanna Be Beautiful.

check out one of Jenn's posts,

www.xanga.com/halfwaycrazy

she talks about her obsession with being skinny .

everyone has something they hate about

their bodies or whatever.

she says i'm like reeeally skinny,

but i disagree .

i look in the mirror and i'm not one bit

happy with the girl staring back at me.

the world is so plastic.

"inside me is a thin girl trying to get out.

i usually shut the bitch up with chocolate."

but still .

2007-08-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

the MM crew is love baby.

thank you all for making that night

so incredibly wonderful .

i wouldn't dream of working with any

other group of people than you guys!

and also thanks to James (:

We Love You Jamesypoooo,

even though you won't let us play

our "Nigga xfdldxzlg music"

and we have to bear with your old

Guns 'n' Roses records all day .

still,

the MM girls party like this, yo .

(pictures soon , when Laine sends them to me)

took out my tragus stud.

it's infected now,

i miss my piercing already

shoot me.

2007-08-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated Red & White Day, yo

Joe (:

like zomg,

i so need to get my pink skinnies.

everyone owes me $,
but whatever ,

cause i owe everyone else $ .

2007-08-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

got my tragus done, finally.
went to penin after school
with jenn, clare, bra and jaz.
bought red skinnies (patriotic, yo).
the piercer at Acid Crue wasn't in,
so we went to Ink By Finch.
Fat Joe is soooo cute :D
haha!
anyways,
jenn did hers first and her
reaction was so funny.
and i think i like screamed
when he pierced me cause i wasn't
like ready for it yet.
Joe was all like,
"fuck. this is funny."
haha
oh,
clare did her eyebrow (:
pictures soon .
trained to town,
hung out with clare.
trained back to city hall to
meet Justin :D
and so,
i watched The Simpsons with him
though i already watched it,
only cause i promised
ages ago i'd watch it with him .
after the show we walked back
to penin and he got his eyebrow
re-pierced at Acid Crue.
and he was like telling me about
him piercing his own nipple
some time back ,
said he bled like crazyyyy.
well,
he's a genius.
--

Ben lost his phone :/
cheer up okay !
at least you got your purple skinnies.
i love you gay twit.

2007-08-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

towned today with ben after school!

he got me my patrick junior.

plus i saw krystal at cine.

zomgxxxxzz!

haha i practically screamed

and ran over to hug her.

it's been what,

a year?

I LOVE YOU KRYS.

oh i haven't got my tragus pierced,

due to the fact that jiemeixz

effing, flipping ponned school.

jenn : "zomg i forgot!"

haha slap you.

clare's getting her eyebrow

done tmr too .

yay,

happy kids.

2007-08-06T19:11:00.000+08:00

gonna get a piercing tmr with jenn.

like i'm having a bad sore throat,

and i was running a fever this afternoon.

but my stuff toy gave me a reason to smile

xoxo love.

eee

gramatically speaking you're adorable.

& from what i hear ,

you're quite affordable.

but i like them pricey.

so exaggerate & trick me.

pretty please,

just trick me.

2007-08-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

is it enough to love?

is it enough to breathe?

somebody rip my heart out,

& leave me here to bleed .

is it enough to die?

somebody save my life .

i'd rather be anything but ordinary, please.

to walk within the lines would make my life so boring .

i want to know that i've been to the extreme .

so knock me off my feet,

come on now give it to me .

anything,

anything to make me feel alive.